by Emily Conrad

I am working on a project that has tossed me into unknown territory. As I struggle to figure out what I should be doing here, the rules of the game, the leading of my Savior, I’m struck by how much I do not know.

I’ve prayed for wisdom, and I must trust that the wisdom I need will be granted as I go (Jeremiah 33:3, James 1:5-6). So I keep putting one foot in front of the other, but the immensity of the unknown rolls overhead like a thundercloud.

In moments when that cloud bursts and showers on me experiences I’d rather avoid, I wonder how my faith has failed me. Did I not turn to God often enough, soon enough? (Can we ever?) Would he have spared me all this if I’d been a better follower?

But he never promised we wouldn’t experience cloud bursts. In fact, we’re to expect much worse–fiery trials (1 Peter 4:12). He also never promised I would know everything right when I’d like to know it.

Much the opposite. He sometimes leads us through experiences/ we’re not meant to understand in the moment (John 13:7), experiences with meaning so deep and just and right that we would never believe it in our human frailty (Habakkuk 1:5), things beyond what we would even think to look for (Isaiah 64:3). For now, God knows them and has kept them secret, and it is up to me to trust that secrets are safe with Him. It is up to me to trust what he has revealed (Deuteronomy 29:29).

Because, despite all the unknowns, God has not left us without a Guide. I don’t need to see the way. I don’t need clear skies overhead. I need Jesus.

P.S. This post is part of the 31 Days of 5 Minute Free Writes challenge. I wrote the start of the post to the / in 5 minutes, though I did go back and add the Bible references later. To learn more about the challenge and to browse the lovely posts by others participating, visit Creative and Free’s link up here.

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